I’m not big on change. No sir. Not at alI.
Unfortunately, not liking something doesn’t make it go away.
The big changes in my life have typically been accompanied by tears.
Lots and lots of tears.
The change can be good, bad or indifferent. It doesn’t matter. Change is change as far as my tears are concerned.
A new semester in school.
A friend moving far away.
Our first house placed on the market.
A new job.
Twelve weeks ago my life changed forever. (See my past post entitled “A Baby Changes Everything” for the details!)
Yes, there were tears. Especially in the early weeks. But I settled into a new routine and have grown quite comfortable in it.
Well, once again it’s time for more change.
I’m making my way back into the working world this week. A world of meetings, deadlines and high heels.
I’ll miss lazy mornings in pajamas, taking the whole day to do two loads of laundry and eating lunch anytime I get the urge.
Most of all, I’ll miss spending the day with theBABY. I’ll miss knowing what she’s spending her days doing. I’ll miss seeing every smile and waiting for more “firsts”.
Will there be tears? Sure. (There have already been a few.)
Will there be lots of tears? I’m sure of it. It usually happens when I least expect it, and it’s totally uncontrollable. (It’s not pretty.)
I’m going to allow myself that. One good cry. I’ve earned it.
I’m also going to allow myself to be excited about this change. I’m looking forward to getting back to life. It’s been a great winter of hibernation, but now I’m ready for Spring.
For once in my life I think I’m ready for change. Because this change, as hard as it may be, is a change that I believe will help theBABY and theGIRL grow up in a whole new way.